There are 2 new phenomena happening in my life the last week and I am now on the look out waiting to see what will happen next. Well, they are sort of one and the same, cause and effect, not sure, still trying to make sense of it.
The first one, I have decided to call "Anti-Serendipity"
Definition: Trying hard to do (Or not do) a certain important thing, and having it go MORE disastrously wrong the harder you try.
At least 5 times this week I thought I was doing something good and it turned into "train-wreck in slow motion badness". The more I try to not do it, the worse it gets!
In my case this is ONLY happening with one person. Career = Great! Personal life = Proud of myself. Money = Spending itself nicely.
What does it all mean? Well I figure it means one (or more) of these things:
1) I am trying wayyyy too hard.
2) I am being punished for someTHING awful by someONE awful.
3) This is life's way of bitch-slapping some sense into me.
4) I am really incredibly and mind-bendingly STUPID.
5) I am making up excuses for myself.
6) "Anti-Game"
Anti-Game - I have always known I "Don't have Game". I am not a player. Putting on my game face is not part of my morning cup of tea and shower habits. I am fine with this, I have been getting along VERY nicely in life without it. Here is the thing though - I might have developed the OPPOSITE of game.
To sum this up: Whatever it is that you are NOT supposed to do, I am doing that. Fine, but I have somehow become AWARE of this happening - being aware is much worse.
Here is my action plan - In 3 days I am going to grade myself on all three, with extra marks being awarded for "getting over myself."
1) Be the natural, dependable, confident and cool guy that I normally am (When my life is not being turned upside down.)
2) Stop making excuses.
3) Stop trying to have Game - The only game I have is Cricket.
Today's mood: Remarkably good under the circumstances.
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