A path lined with silver

Last night I went for a walk and day dreamed about a path lined with silver. One that has been there for me for a long time but I have perhaps been afraid to take it. I think I am a list-maker at heart. Lists are way of making sense of things, perhaps that's a reflection of a mental limitations I am not sure, but I do like lists. Last night under the near-full moon I made a mental list that became a real life-written down agreement with myself and now I think I'm ready to take the path.

Serenity > Excitement (No Alarms and No Surprises)

Geezers needs excitement or they incite violence, common sense, simple common sense.  Well, I am not much of a geezer today and am opting for a quiet life instead (....A hand-shake of Carbon Monoxide...). 


Well there you go, that's two lyrical references in on sentence. Haven't blogged in a while and it probably shows huh?


How do I sum up the last month or two on non-stop, non-blogging nonsense? I would summarize as follows:


Bravery - surprising success - sudden painful failure - pick-self-off-floor -  rinse and repeat.  


At this point I am reflecting on the whole thing and wondering if this is "Gods way" of shifting my perspectives in a very fundamental way? My inability to positively influence things and my gross ability to negatively affect things has perhaps taught me the biggest lesson of the last few months. It rather reminds me of this Rudyard Kipling Poem I am about to paraphrase:


If you can meet with triumph and disaster 
And treat those two imposters just the same


..Yes Mr Kipling has it right I think.. 


I am of course, ALWAYS going to be an idealist and optimist. My favorite two things about myself, and I might not be fated to always be happy and content (Happy and content don't mix with idealistic optimists) I am on my feet and definitely harder, better, faster and stronger. Bring it on bitches.